Leisure
poem by William Henry Davies
Leisure
What is this life if, full of care,
We have no time to stand and stare?
No time to stand beneath the boughs,
And stare as long as sheep and cows;
No time to see, when woods we pass,
Where squirrels hide their nuts in grass;
No time to see, in broad daylight,
Streams full of stars, like skies at night;
No time to turn at Beauty's glance,
And watch her feet, how they can dance;
No time to wait till her mouth can
Enrich that smile her eyes began?
A poor life this if, full of care,
We have no time to stand and stare.
it would be a blessing to stand and stare now, ya?
Maybe thats barry loves to do nothing.
NOT heart disease.
oops.... sorry to frens and also sorry to myself for making myself soooooo worried about my beloved heart.
Its really heartening to hear from the doctor that its not any heart-related disease. But instead, he said it is muscle pull, the same as what the doctor said in Shanghai. *double confirmed!*
And to make sure there is no mis-treatment, i brought along the ECG i took last year for him to refer, and told him i am worried. gosh... i am such a person who needs assurance!!!! and further re-assurance!!!!!
and he explained to me that many ppl have ECG like mine where there is a right bundle branch morphology. and my branch is jus a very small one which shouldnt be anything significant.
SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO i am very happy and relieved to know that i wun be dying of heart disease, and its jus a muscle pull. unloaded the heavy stone on my heart.
So, to prevent muscle pull, i shouldnt carry heavy things with my left arm and also dun do that stunt in gym where u support yourself using left arm. gosh.. i got weak arms.....
Delightful as it is, i guess i only enjoy the game heart attack which i jus played on sunday!
worried
hmm.... sometimes i worry too much. as the chinese says worried that the sky will fall.
i dunno if this is called consciousness or awareness or over-worrying.... which is kinda unnecessary.
becos i am easily stressed, so this make me more worried. worried about worrying.
recently, i want to face the top worry of my worries. health.
i am not your pink baby, though not your sickly child. but not having tiptop health.
gastric is the only major thing i encountered before i went shanghai. while in shanghai, many other forms of un-healthyness came.
Cold feet and hands(which was the case all along, but getting better now), occasional gastric... but i dun have flus and cold often, which is very good.
but there are some symptoms which get me worried.
like being breathless sometimes, and also the pain on the left side of my body.
i been to doctor to ask about it, cos a previous health screening last year showed there was sth sth about my ECG, but cos i was in shanghai, so i took a new ECG and the doctor said i was fine. diagnosing it as a muscle pull...
so i let it rest.. though the pain come back quite frequently.
recently, this pain worries me a bit. it had not come for sometime, and now it came back. and cos sometimes i worried about it and felt a bit breathless. in addition, school is a bit stressful, so the pain makes me hard to concentrate on my work.
so.. i decided to go to the doctor and request a ECG again, and have to remember to take the previous ECG along for comparision.
really, what if i got a heart disease?
2 days of getting together
chalet! how time flies... the group of us went to chalet ard this time too last year. and after much anticipation, chalet ended and we're back to doing our own roles after a wonderful weekend.
During the weekdays, i was pretty stressed out, and wasa bit worried about going to the chalet. will going there make me more stressful cos there are works not done? or will i be able to enjoy it fully?
with God's blessing, i felt the latter. I was able to enjoy it fully and everyone went home with a new perspective and also shared a bit more of themselves during the chalet which was one of the objectives. Jus like how the moon will crescent or full, there are also a few pity, but nevertheless, we learnt lessons.
Maybe next time we'll have some more outings and include all those who are in our group, so that we can have a good get together!
feet evolution
i always though my feet belong to a female farmer. Dark and wide, nothing like those of Cinderella's, whose feet fits into the petite glass heels.
But being a city girl, i decided to go for pedicure, indulge myself in the luxury and feet evolution.
I always prefer pedicure, cos varnish on fingers looks too cancer causing to eat with.
So my feet is now decorated with ten red toe nails. pretty pretty feet, though still far from cinderella's but at least i got my prince to see them.
pretty feet on city girl makes her day happi~~
胎死腹中
No matter how much we try, somethings jus cannot change.
Not changing for the better, jus changing to accomodate and changing to understand and to feel.
Maybe we can never see each other's point.
In carry a project to the end.
No promise, No trying, No strings attached.
Either it never ends, or it never work out.
