merry christmas~
merry christmas!!!!this is the last year i am spending this special moment in shanghai with my frens.actually never celebrate xmas in singapore, the last one i remember was hmm.. i cant remember at all.haha...so it was quite special for me when i came to shanghai which i celebrated my first xmas.i remember my first xmas when the exchange jiejie and i went out to town for dinner and we bought xmas hats which we wore all the way on the streets and then back to hostel.then...second year, we had a really big party, eating drinking fooling around in full force. and we got real presents..... it was fun and really sweet for me that time.last year, we started to have small girls party... which we cooked and ate and be merry... and hahah, yes we got our xmas hats too!this year, we had a six girls xmas party. really fun.... i love every moment of it. and knowing that this will be the last year i am celebrating with my frens here, its well.. not sad, but memorable. we had vegetarian redang curry which i brought from singapore, then fruit salad, vegetable pancakes, tomato and potato soup and also multigrain rice... welll... haha not forgetting our zhong tou xi~~~ xmas cake! it was a strawberry mousse cake with chocolate sponge. very very nice... and so... xmas songs in the background, a heart shaped xmas light and we took lotsa photos and danced ard... of cos, we never count down as usual... cos one of my fren got an exam tmr... as always... it;s exam period now haii...so tmr is xmas and i got to start my new week of revision... and wait again for next week's countdown to 2007... when i have to start another week of revision on the 1st jan in preparation for 2nd jan exam.this is school in china. exams in the midst of this festive season...fortunate that i am graduating and can finally celebrate my holiday in real festive mood. haha...As the song goes: All i want for christmas is U....haha.... again
studying late into the night
it's so long that i actually still have books in front of me at this time, 1am.ok, i am not a good girl loh.. didnt burn mid night oils.. but ya... this time i think i want to.jiayou... my girl.
LDR
LDRit's really hard.it's had been 4 months now.... and i am not handling it very well. depressions which i had never felt sink in like water that runs down a stream... unconciously.thought i can handle long distance relationships very well last time, when i was still single and free and ya,.. naive. when it comes to relationships, women's hearts are thrown all the way out to the other end of the world, and sometimes we can find it back and sometimes we lose it.had been throwing bad tempers so often that i am quite embarassed already. apologising after the fit and then fall into it again. a form of reincarnation i think, a cycle that dun ends.i had been telling myself to control myself. and i think i am improving but jus, maybe i need to double up my pace. my cousin once said men are like caterpillars... ya, jus caterpillars, it doesnt include the butterfly stage which evolves after that. jus plain simple green caterpillars. why? becos guys think single mindedly. guys out there, it's a compliment! serious.think again, why do your girlfrens get into their twin sister by the name of temper so so often? it's because we(i am a woman too) think too complicatedly. we tend to think deep, so deep sometimes which the abyss doesnt even exist!and then when the dark clouds pass away, we realised red-cheekedly that oops, it's all jus my imagination. then text message our darlings and dears and honey and whatever u call them, that we are so sorry.BUT! guys there! if there is any reading my entry, dun think u can get away with it ok. both parties have to put in effort to try and keep the r/s peaceful and blissful.i am not trying to change the caterpillars we face, but trust that caterpillars have memory and ya, remember that your gf is complicated and try not to make her so complicated. but dun keep telling her to be simple, cos she wun understand that too, like caterpillars cant understand women's mind. ya?so....what i want to say is.... men and women are really different. though we love them, we are still different. jus that we have to find a balance point between the difference and ya, we will all be blessed.say i am idealistic, but i dun want to believe that a couple should end up breaking jus becos they have different character. No difference can upset a relationship if love is strong enough to hold both on. and love have to be nurtured and give time to bloom.oopss.... i thought i want to talk about LDR here, but haha... diverted.back.LDR are hard. and many feelings that doesnt exist suddenly appear right in the face, and they seem so real. but bear in mind, these are jus imaginations. remember, people are blessed with imaginations, but sometimes we put them into the wrong use. so... rememeber.. stay clear and alert. and think about the happy moments both of u have when u are together.for me, squabbles dun even exist between when we were together, but once we are separated by the miles of sea and land, i get angry over simple things. which is ok, i admit, no good at all.fortunately... i only have 1 more sem to bear. and i am going home for 2 months soon, 30 days from now, so i am really happy and looking forward. ok, i want to promise myself not to be overly sensitive. i guess that cause stress on my bf too, and i dun want him to be moody too.cos he is my happy icon:)so, ya... LDR, hard but wish all couples blissful.
long time no see...
i jus loved my fren's blog... filled with pictures and vivid description of her life. a way to keep up with singapore's lifestyle or a way to vent my boredom, well i might never find out. but anyway, her blog is jus nice to read and see...for mine, the lack of pictures is one, cos i haven figured out how to post pictures within the entry except to have it on the left, right ot centre, terrible ya? and i only know how to have one pic per entry. I will figure it out this holidays. i will...1 more week to exams and though i had been working from last week. but i guess i still need to work faster and harder. hee...well... half more year in shanghai, and then home. really mixed feelings. and there is so many things awaiting to happen back in singapore. like living among my fellow country man, family, friends and also someone i hope to keep to the last. understanding understanding understanding. to comprehend life is not easy, but we must all keep trying, for we have the strenght to make it last.ok, time to study in the cold lobby.
