A Living Catalyst

when i am left alone...

night falls... and i am left alone at home to grumble.. oops! is to muse about life.
life had gone by us jus when the second jumps to the next.
we had grown up.

we left childhood behind and then the teenage years. stepping into the twenties made me aware of the happenings that come in life.
when we realise, hey... one of our fren got married! one of our fren was caught in a fatal accident! one of our frens was commited to MIH, and this fren broke up and step out, many of us getting more bouts of depressions.
and i wonder, why is it that unfortunate things seem to appear more frequent ard me now? is anything wrong with the world besides more terrorism, more wars, more greenhouse effects and more icebergs melting?
maybe doomsday is near, but frankly speaking, it is us who are growing up.
growing up, aka, facing the reality.

suddenly i thought of the Buddha when he was jus a prince. he went out of his palace and saw the 4 sufferings of life: birth, old age, illness and death.
once upon a time, when we are still in sucking our thumb using the pink mrt card, all we bother with is what to play with the next moment. and sometime later, its about what school should i choose. its nothing as serious as life and death, but now we do face with living as a fact for now.
its fortunate i should say, that we had come all the way to this stage of life. for some fellow beings are not even entitled to breathing through their first year of age.

life is really about the moment and also our strength. building up our strength is important for its what really help us last in life.
strength in life, strength in self, strength in others and most importantly strength in God.
strength is not about muscles and force, rather its inner peace and will power. these are strength which will last us till we age.
through birth, old age, illness and death, we do conquer them, but not that we live without them. but we do not fear them for they are stages which will come. we seek calmness and peace in this stages, fulfilling our duty to God, others and self.

faith is really important, it eliminates fear and brings us to another stage of enlightment.

posted by simplecatalyst @ Friday, March 23, 2007 0 comments

singapore vs shanghai

its one more week to departure for shanghai, and i still didnt manage to finish my meet up sessions with all the old frens in singapore. due to my laziness, changing of hp number, thesis(let me have a chance to be hardworking), lots of feasting due to the new year and also some holy lessons for me. a bit of guilty here, for my singapore frens and also shanghai frens.
been here for 2 months, but i sort of neglected some of my old frens which is not that good. i should be more trying... to build up our r/s again, for the past present and future.
for fudan frens, i will be graduating in 3 months time, but i dun want to go back. its not about the frens, its maybe about the place. frankly speaking, i am quite sian about shanghai already, its been 4 years and i am well... ready to leave and come back to singapore. not that shanghai is sian, but its jus well... not my home.

posted by simplecatalyst @ Sunday, March 18, 2007 0 comments

random loss

this is a topshop blouse which i like when i was shopping for new year clothes. but...... becos my boyfriend said its not nice, so i chose another one. BUT!!!! that was not as nice. and i think i will not listen to him again next time..., NO>>>>

so now i can only look at this photo.. its quite ex, 66sdg, so i am still considering whether i should buy this for myself... hmmm...









barry bought this for me, but hmm... i was too rough that i broke this necklace. felt so sad that night. so now i can only look at the picture.....

posted by simplecatalyst @ Thursday, March 08, 2007 1 comments